Dear Rudianny Zapata Valdez,  (Too formal)

Dear Rudianny, (Is a teacher writing to me or am I writing to myself?)

Dear Rudy, (Now it seems as if my friend is texting me)

Dear Cucha, (Yeah, no. Only my family calls me that)

Dear Self, (Perfect.)

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, and twelve. I count the spaces to get the right size of an indent as I right on my phone.

            You have done it once again, and this time it’s my fault. Let’s talk about my writing habits, how they have changed and how they have not. At the start of your first year in college, you were hungry for new pages to write, starving to write and allow the pressure of assignments to flow through me. I would find you writing in the crazy trains, crowded with people, bumping into everyone for the minor turbulences the train cart brought. I saw you from my reflection, writing away a mass of words to make sense of later on. On your phone, you would write as if it was sans those around you, and it was only you. I envy that old you, able to write when the motivation and time came. Now, it’s different, it’s complex, it’s disappointing. I question wether that job was a good idea, or wether I, myself, have brought so much upon myself I am at a loss of reality. My habits have changed. No longer are the late nights recipients of my abuse of trying, they are filled with exhaustion. No longer are my train rides filled with a game of words, you will now find yourself nodding off. Energy has been deflated, motivation has left through the door, and now you are by yourself thinking what went wrong. I hold the answers to so many of my unspoken questions. Through Writing of the Sciences, you were able to see that, and truly envision how much you are dragging yourself. I questioned wether to quit, I questioned everything, but still I tried not to give up. . . and in the Sciences I learnt. My curiosity may have deflated but now I have new habits, new wonderings. Before, The New York Times was scarce, now it’s a habit. I try to find interesting articles whenever I’m on a break at work, I try to educate myself on the happenings on the world. I try to question these articles, I try to expand my knowledge on these topics. This class has heightened my sense of awareness in the Science world. A world so vast that at times it seems never ending, and that’s most likely true. One thing I can say I took from taking such class was the knowledge that was gain, the collaborative work that was finally done allowed to view a world outside of my expectations, where collaborations were balanced out well.  Aside from that, you took upon a world that is so fast and always moving, forgetting things and adding things. For instance, I am curious as to what many other words have been lost within the decades, and also what new words are coming up. I am interested in the old and the new. My new habit is to question articles, question and find out more, figure out other types of perspectives. From The New York Times and scientific peer reviews. This class encourage me to believe that science is a big field and that you can male it your own if you experiment enough. Test the waters to see what fits your character. Some paths will work and others won’t, just as Heidi did. She started off one way and ended up another way, it’s not a matter of paths ending, it’s a matter of questioning what’s next. 

Now go, and ask yourself… What’s next? 

Through failures and victories always question that.

Sincerely,

Yourself